do you know how it feels like

to want something with all your heart, seeing it in pictures, and you can't stand the thought of seeing them all through another person's camera shots and not through your own experience, that you just have to close that window and try to ease the pressure in your chest and the mercury of your emotions, to want something you don't know if you'll ever get, with all the road blocks that you have to clear from your way in order to finally be there and breathe the air no matter how cold and snuggle into a really nice trenchcoat and look good and belong in the scene overall, to finally be there after everything and everything actually goes well....ahhh, wouldn't it be loverly.