fuming

i'm probably speaking for myself, but i'm somewhat infinitely irritated with people who imply something else about something you present to them. it's like, haha! i know why you're doing this! and more often than not, it turns out, they don't really know.
presumptions, presumptions.
and in this particular case i'm talking about, i don't know, he sounds somewhat...bitter towards me. and when i ask myself why, a dozen reasons are enumerated in my head. but i am speculating. i shouldn't be giving so much weight on haka-haka, because i realize that then i would be assuming truths -like him. and that's the last thing i want right now, to have anything in common with him. i don't hate him, but i presently dislike to be in his company.

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i don't know...
no.
must...not...


i can't.


tsk. tsk.

heyst!

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:'(

and i would be glad and feel content every time we talk.
i would have preferred that most things would be back as they were.
but it is non-negotiable as it seems, and i do not have the strength
that it takes to make me feel really all right.

i still prefer her to be part of my life, but she would not see that.
i will not let her.

mindset

doing something you don't feel like doing requires a conditioning
of the mind --a mindset. ceaseless talking and complaining will
only get you nowhere faster. and you'll accomplish little if any.

hahay. ambot na lang gyud...

if

if i survive tonight,
will i be grateful for tomorrow?

that thing called...

it's like the wind...sometimes it goes your way..

it conquers all, but is a mystery...

it breaks your heart, it takes no less than everything...

makes it hard, and fades away so easily...

but it breaks the chains...

it takes the tears and the pain and turns it into the beauty that remains...

lalalalala...

i'm not sure if it falls from sky above, or if it's underneath a willow tree...

but he just might be standing right next to me. =)